Relay for Life

Still getting a mild rash with the Revlimid.  Doing the every other day taking of the pill.  Rash is very sporadic where is chooses to be.  Right now I have some on my head, around my ears and by my right temple.  A few days ago it was on my lower back and my stomach.  Not sure just what
Dr. Sarriera will do.  Just have to wait and see.

I do feel pretty good.  My news last week has help tremendously.  I am dealing with the "dizziness" from the meds and the neuropathy.  But there are days, I just don't feel like dealing with it and I am entitled not too.   Just need to hear Dr. Sarriera say that I am in remission at my next appointment.  I think once I hear that, I will be able to put the fact that Myeloma will come back eventually, further back in my mind.  And I can't beat myself up for thinking that as it hasn't even been a year since I was diagnosed.  And hasn't been but 5 months since I had my transplant.  So if sometimes I don't seem happy about the good test results, that's okay.  Because life with cancer has a way of altering your way of thinking.  Life with cancer has a way of affecting your emotions.

I went to the dentist this past week because I was having some pain in my top tooth in the back.  I thought for sure it was fractured.  Had an X-ray and examine.  Dentist said it wasn't fractured or infected.  Thinks it just my sinus problems causing the pain because it's not consistent.  That was more good news.  Thought I would be going through a root canal, crown and all that goes with that.

The years I walked for Relay for Life, I never thought I would some day hope the World Kitchen walkers would have me in their thoughts and prayers as they walk the track at Greencastle High School.  A track I walked for my dad, my friend Donna, my friend Louise, my brother-in-law John, my friend Deb's brother and many others over the years.  I never thought I would be a victim too.  I never thought the money I raised as a walker, the money I spent on the raffles however minute, the money raised by World Kitchen would maybe someday be used towards finding a cure for cancer, a cure for Multiple Myeloma.  I will be looking for an event near here.  I know there is a picnic in June sponsored by Relay for Life that I am hoping Bill and I will be able to attend.  Hoping maybe Kristi, Matt and the girls can go as well.

Quote:

The mind keeps thinking you have had enough but the heart keeps telling you don't give up.